Please Release Me, Let Me Go..

I've had that song stuck in my head for the last six months or so.

Today I was released as the Relief Society secretary. Kind of sad about that. Mostly happy. I tried really hard to do a good job in my calling and I think I did okay, but I got really burned out. I'll really miss the people I worked with--the presidency is amazing. I'll probably even miss their little idiosyncrasies that drove me crazy sometimes. I loved being in the relief society and getting to know all the sisters. But at the same time I feel so relieved not to have to worry about getting everything done and keeping up on everything enough to keep the rest of the presidency up on everything. I think they might be a little relieved that I'm gone. I was kind of annoying. I think I made my job harder than it should have been, but I felt like if I let anything slip I'd be not doing everything that I could to help the sisters know they were loved and feel included. I still let things slip and that led to me just feeling guilty all the time. Nothing is more awful than knowing you're not doing everything you're supposed to be doing, which is kind of the story of my life.

I'm excited to teach in primary now. I have an amazing team teacher and I'm so excited to learn from her. I hope my kids like me. I know a bit about some of them, but I don't really know any of them. Hopefully I'm not one of those teachers that the kids hate. Or maybe that was just me that really didn't like some of the primary teachers that I had. Actually there was just one when I was eleven that I really didn't like. She tried to be our friend and didn't really teach us. I hated that. One of my favorite teachers was Brother Wickline. He hung people that misbehaved upside down by their ankles. And said that if you left the country you had to be rebaptized in the country that you were in. I loved him. I made one of my Sunday school teachers quit one time. Still kind of traumatized by that. I really liked her as a teacher, but she was kind of afraid of me and asked to be released.

Anyways, here's hoping that the incredibly relieved feeling that I have now sticks around for a while.